At the Movies

Let’s go out to the movies!

Welcome to Me: In theaters now

Trainwreck: July 17th

Saint Laurent: May 8th (select theaters)

Pitch Perfect 2: May 15th

Woman In Gold: In theaters now

The Overnight: June 19th


Observations After Losing 40Lbs

1. I’m very rarely full. There’s a difference between satisfied and full. When I’m done eating I’m usually satisfied but rarely full.IMG_2061

2. Everyone will tries to tell me how unhealthy diet food it. 

  • “You know diet soda is filled with chemicals. You should really only drink water.” 
  • “The food at Subway isn’t really fresh at all and it’s nothing but preservatives.” 

When trying to eat healthier it’s normal to turn to diet food. While the diet options are not perfect they are better than the full fat alternatives. Not to worry though because there is always someone around who is trying to school me on how bad my choices really are. It seems as though as soon as I started saying no to dessert the only thing I’m expected to eat is a kale salad with water dressing.


3. I now have to wear a hoodie in the office because I get cold. I used to be one of the people who was always warm and loved it when my office would crank up the AC. Now I enjoy the AC with the help of a sweatshirt.


4. Everyone thinks I’m still losing weight. I’ve been in the same 10lbs range for about 2 and a half years but I still get asked, “Have you lost more weight?” every time I go out. I’m not offended I just find it funny. Truth be told it’s all about clothes. I tend to fall right in between Large-XLarge and a 36-38. Over time I’ve had to completely rebuild my wardrobe from scratch so my size can look different depending on whether I’m on the smaller or larger end of my size range.


5. Overweight people feel the need to tell me about their amazing blood work. “My doctor says I have the blood work of a college athlete.” I guess they feel the subconscious need to defend their size around a traitor to the fat boy cause.


6. I have trouble knowing when to shut up. My feelings about my body and my journey over the last couple years are still a little unsettled. Usually when asked about it I have a simple scripted response, “I just needed to get healthy.” Unfortunately every now and then my defenses will be down and I’ll wind up blabbering on and on about the whole mess with a little too much honesty and emotion. A couple of weekends ago this happened at a bar while I was chatting with my friend Mario. Once the flood gates opened it just poured out and I became that girl. It’s like when you accidentally say too much about an ex. You’re asked “Didn’t you used to date him?” Rather than respond with a simple “Yes it was a long time ago” you instead unload the whole story of your heartbreak and downward spiral.


7. I’ve come full circle. The image on the left side is me in 2009 before my weight gain. The image on the right side is me in 2015 after my weight loss. I ended up exactly where I started.


Met Gala 2015

sjp-met-ball_2015_5.0The theme of this years Costume Institute Gala is China: Through the Looking Glass.

SJP steels the show again in a dress by H&M and a costume Philip Treacy headpiece.

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Giving me LIFE!


We’re usually not good friends KP but I love the short hair and dig that purse. Well done.

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Best she has ever looked. EVER.

What were they thinking…


Back rolls…


Skeletor realness


kris-jenner-met-beauty_2015_5.0Bruce Jenner looks great in a dress. #transphobic

Bear Fanboys


Urban dictionary defines a fanboy as:

“A passionate fan of various elements of geek culture, but who lets his passion override social graces.”

While comic books and RPGs were the inspiration for the word it has evolved overtime to include things like Apple’s iPhone and watch. [Side note: One of Apple’s greatest skills is creating a fanboy frenzy for its products.] Recently it occurred to me that there is also a subset of the bear community that should be included be as fanboys. Bears being fanboys for nerd culture and Apple products is a tale as old as time and a song as old as rhyme. However I’ve started to notice that some guys are fanboys FOR bears. They are obsessed with all the hottest guys they see online and they yearn to one day be included in all those Facebook group pictures.

The other night I was introduced to Dan. He was in town visiting a mutual friend who happened to be a well know internet “hot guy.” As we talked I discovered that he was not so much a friend as a total bear fanboy. It felt like he was one step away from asking the hot bear to sign his tit for a future tattoo.

That gave me an idea. I’ve met a few of these types of guys before so I felt I would compile a guide to help you spot these fanboys in the future. Here are the most common clues:

  1. When he uses the word friend he is actually referring to social media friends. He talks about all the hot guys he knows but you slowly start to realize he only knows them through Facebook or at most they hung out once at a bear run. When he talks about his close friends he says things like, “We’ve never met but we’ve been chatting online for years.”
  2. He name drops the names of popular bears on Facebook and Tumblr. Here’s a tip, when I meet a guy for the first time he should have some friends that I’ve never heard of. It starts to become suspect when he only know the guys everyone else seems to know too. 
  3. It’s clear that he’s confused sexual attraction and honest friendship. You wonder if he has ever taken the time to look past the physical and get to know the person. While there is absolutely nothing wrong with being attracted to your friends it should not be the only basis for the relationship. 
  4. When you mention a real friend of yours whose name he doesn’t recognize he’ll ask, “Do I know him?” Once he realizes the person doesn’t have 2000 Tumblr likes or an army of Instagram followers they are quickly dismissed and forgotten. 
  5. Conversation is difficult especially when a super hot bear is nearby. He’ll likely spend most of the time quietly following around said bear only to occasionally whisper “You’re so sexy” in his ear.
  6. He’s single. He has no idea why that super hot guy from San Diego didn’t fall madly in love with him when they finally met in Ptown last summer. Although he still holds out hope that they will end up together and live happily ever after.
  7. The only guys that keep his attention are the one that he has spent hours stalking online. Being hot doesn’t mean you are impolite, so many of the hot bears will be friendly and inadvertently string these fanboys along. When the fanboy tells the story of how they met their crush it always sounds something like, “I always thought he was the hottest guy on Tumber and then I saw him in Fort Lauderdale and had to go up and introduce myself. I think he remembered that time I woofed at him on Gowlr last year.”

There’s nothing wrong with appreciating a hot guy as long as you realize that they are just people like everyone else. Also like everyone else getting to know a person on a one on one level is crucial before they deserve a pedestal. So while we’ve all probably had our fanboy moments I shouldn’t become a way of life.

If you or someone you know is suffering from a serious case of fanboy syndrome contact a professional blogger for judgmental advice. Tell them to take a long hard look at their priorities and the next time they have the urge to fanboy they should channel their inner Christina Crawford.